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I avoided coming here... I wish I don't have to come here at times.

but where else can I go, who else can I speak to...

Actually I also have no idea what I wanna say... I just feel so hurt... But I don't know how to explain or say it anymore. Somehow try ba... Hope I can feel better after this post...

I'm not trying to snatch your friends. I don't know know much of them. I only know 2 and I only contact one. And even to them, I'm known as a friend.

I never insist to tag along, if you find my presence a hindrance, I can always not participate. Just don't ask me to go then...

Then don ask me why cannot go out as a group, why just us...

There are things that you can't share with me that you need to share with others? What am I to you then?

I never exclude you in my outings or gatherings if I have, as a matter of fact, I wish you be around but your intentions were clear. You didn't want to attend or you don't find a need.

I know I'm not good enough for you. I understand that very well, thats why I wanna improve further with studies to try to match up the difference.

No matter what I say its just what I feel and it does not matters anymore. I'm not even worth the effort for you to think of what to get for me for birthday even thou I've mentioned a lot of times what I need for my daily use but I didn't get. I don't even need it to be branded like LV or whatever. Never mind don't, no nid to get... Really...

Seems like whatever I do also not right... Too childish, don know how to think, you are probably wondering why are you with this shitty person in the first place.

Ok done but I still don't feel better... not a single bit... F*