Jane & RET

Jane~ "What did i do wrong? Do i deserve this kinda treatment right now? I understand that u are going thru a tough time right now. All i wanna do is be there for u as a gf, and yet u choose to shut me out totally! What must i do to get ur attention? Must i get myself landed in the hospital before u care. Or probably u dun even care. i really dun wanna add anymore burden to u during this period. I just wanna lend u a shoulder like how you would lend it to me. perhaps im really dispensable in ur life. U promised to nv make me cry, and yet i have crying all day bcos i'm worried bout u. and the crying gets worse when u are totally ignoring me, like i nv exist. i'm jus another useless gf."

RET~ Everyone is dispensable to him except for himself. His promises made were meant to be broken.

Jane~ "Silly it may sound, but i leave him smses everyday even tho he doesnt reply at all. i was hoping he replied at least a take care when i told him i wasn't feeling well last nite. Nothing... nothing came in. nothing at all. so here i am cryin, worsening my fever. I love to cry! for its the only way i let out my frustration. I rather exchange my emotional pain to physical pain, really. for now, I have to carry on pretending to the whole family that i'm alright."

RET~ His concerns for himself is far too big for him to see that besides himself others are suffering too.

Jane~ "All i need is just 3 words to let me know you are still mine, as easy as " i love u". Yet i got an sms, with 3 words that end everything: "lets break up". I know how tough things is going on with u, all i wanna do is be there for u as a gf. U are not the only one tearing. U are nt the only one hiding in the toilet tearing. I love u and i totally respect ur decision. No matter how hard i try to tell u im there for u, u never comes to me. All i can do now is think bout all those future plans that we have made. for once, things was still sweet afterall. i duno how long im gonna take to bring myself up again. im too tired."

RET~ Running away from his promises when the road gets tough without noticing that the one fighting to walk the path besides him is already wounded badly by him. Very him indeed...

Jane~ "Sometimes things are easier to be said than done. i ended up crying the whole nite til my eyes are sore and swollen like a GOLDFISH now! thats the only healthy way i can let it out. thanks to those who offered to take me out for a breather, to those who give me endless encouragement, to those who lend me a shoulder to cry on and of cos to my babes who are always there for me. it's gonna be a tough war between me and our memories, tho it was just 3 short months of memories. JIA YOU to you for your work, to your dad's health and to ur nx one[which im very sure u have no lack of)"

RET~ Yes I'm sure he has no lack of... Recently he is happily attached again shortly after his last broke off...

Jane~ "U think that its the right choice because u think that i will be happier. Put urself into my shoes now, u will know how terrible it is. I'm not an unreasonable person, with the kind of issues that is going on in ur life. I'm more than willing to put our relationship on hold if we have talked it out. Nothing that i say is important now, caused u have left. and left a scar that will never heal. Nobody knows what you are thinkin, you know it best."

RET~ The easiest way out for him is to dump away all kinds of commitment. So he can jus concentrate on himself. Then when he feels better, he will jus move on to prey again, work his same old moves again and repeating his steps all over again. To you, to me, to the new her maybe... I hope not.

Above was taken from Jane's blog Not her true identity. I wanted to write something about my last relationship and came across hers. 80% of what I wanted to say was posted out by her months back in 2008 when she was with him.